No way of being, belief or construct is fixed. By fixed I am really speaking of the word as defined by predetermined and not subject to or able to change. We often operate in such a definite way and we justify it by saying things like “well this is just who I am!” I’ve been challenging myself to question these constructs simply so that I am not operating from a fixed way of being and missing out on opportunities to expand, learn something newly, shift a belief that is antiquated or develop a characteristic that may have been missing from my repertoire of ways of being. One of my favorite quotes is from a poet by the name of Diane Ackerman
“I don’t want to get to the end of my life and find that I just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well.”
I do not know when the end of my life will be, I imagine it to be a long life. What I do know is whatever the length be it long or short, the depth and the fullness of the width is in my complete control. I’d like to think that the width of my life expands every single time I challenge a construct or do something out of my ordinary. For instance, I’ve been historically afraid of the ocean. Why? That’s just how I am. ha! It started to sound crazy, once I challenged it I realized the ocean and I have no gripe. On the contrary, I am quite alive floating atop the saltwater waves. Next up for me is challenging my emotional reaction to circumstances. This is something I know I can justify… my natal moon is in Pisces being emotionally reactive is literally how I was born. Challenging this and allowing myself to observe my circumstances without becoming undone is just the stretch a natal Pisces moon need to expand her width just a little more. all stretching counts!
2 thoughts on “the width of life.”
Your words truly inspire me from deep within. As many people try to change who they are, include “myself”, we don’t really know exactly what it is that we are trying to change. I guess my biggest challenge would be challenging myself to live without thought. Do without thought, and learn to love what it is that I am trying to find.
Learning to block out those I can not do thoughts….. Is the first step me..
I will continue to read your words as they have given me insight on what I’m trying to accomplish from within.
Keep being the Yah that you are******GREAT********
WOW. This really touched my heart and inspired me. I’m proud of you for taking on this challenge. I’ll continue to do the same and we can encourage each other along the way. Much love!! Xx